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Monday, April 10, 2006
GOD. help. give me a sign.
i know its a sin to self-inflict. but. i couldnt find a way out. seriously. and. i jus realized im EVIL. probably ure torturing me now by puttin me in this situation. i know. and i will think thru. you gave me thots to anger my friends. to upset my friends. maybe. u jus wan me to go away from them so that they wouldnt know me and live a happier life. i guess so. okie. thank you LORD. i wan to thank u as i realized i have many places i must improve.
actually. i duno what im dng. i jus wan to make life difficult for pple. yah. tats me. so ugly. but who cares. life's so fragile. and i dun deserve love. at all.
my tears are always on the verge of flowin down my cheeks. but each time i tried to control i ended up cutting myself. so dumb. but i cant cry u see. i prob be seen and they would soon see my cuts. that wld be. deadmeat.
LIFE been rilly harsh. i know ive committed a great deal of sin. i cant ask for salvation. i duno wanna lose GOD neither i wan to lose my friends. but. the reality is harsh i know.i know. ive to chose my way. by faith and not by sight.
GOD. i love you more than a great deal of anything. but. i .. ): dui bu qi.
theres still a long week ahead. No. 4 days. before i can get real mad. yahs. 4 days.
yea. im trying my best to avoid my frens. i dun wanna hurt. neither cause pain. im trying so hard lord. pls help me overcome my temptation to meet with pple that duno me inside out. im trying hard!!! but i know i can. i alr. pushed away my date tmr. (: YAY. wash my tears LORD. i know u will give me HOPE and smth to occupy myself tmr afternoon (: i trust u will. cus i dun wanna end up by my table crying (:
YAY.
im gonna start my new life as of tmr.
cleanse me JESUS.
i want to do whats right.
wo bu zhi dao
zi ji
shi fo
zhi de rang ren qu ai.
i know its a sin to self-inflict. but. i couldnt find a way out. seriously. and. i jus realized im EVIL. probably ure torturing me now by puttin me in this situation. i know. and i will think thru. you gave me thots to anger my friends. to upset my friends. maybe. u jus wan me to go away from them so that they wouldnt know me and live a happier life. i guess so. okie. thank you LORD. i wan to thank u as i realized i have many places i must improve.
actually. i duno what im dng. i jus wan to make life difficult for pple. yah. tats me. so ugly. but who cares. life's so fragile. and i dun deserve love. at all.
my tears are always on the verge of flowin down my cheeks. but each time i tried to control i ended up cutting myself. so dumb. but i cant cry u see. i prob be seen and they would soon see my cuts. that wld be. deadmeat.
LIFE been rilly harsh. i know ive committed a great deal of sin. i cant ask for salvation. i duno wanna lose GOD neither i wan to lose my friends. but. the reality is harsh i know.i know. ive to chose my way. by faith and not by sight.
GOD. i love you more than a great deal of anything. but. i .. ): dui bu qi.
theres still a long week ahead. No. 4 days. before i can get real mad. yahs. 4 days.
yea. im trying my best to avoid my frens. i dun wanna hurt. neither cause pain. im trying so hard lord. pls help me overcome my temptation to meet with pple that duno me inside out. im trying hard!!! but i know i can. i alr. pushed away my date tmr. (: YAY. wash my tears LORD. i know u will give me HOPE and smth to occupy myself tmr afternoon (: i trust u will. cus i dun wanna end up by my table crying (:
YAY.
im gonna start my new life as of tmr.
cleanse me JESUS.
i want to do whats right.
wo bu zhi dao
zi ji
shi fo
zhi de rang ren qu ai.
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