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Saturday, February 11, 2006
now i know the meaning of a TRUE friend.
at service today. pastor JEFF talked abt friendship. yepp. FRIENDSHIP. something i treasure so much yet i lose it easily. am i not accepting enough? or are they jus not worthy of my love. i dont know. i jus checked chelk blog. realized ive been so FAR.very FAR from her life. i feel so bad. everyone is living their own life. no own cares abt anyone anymore. new friends. BUSY. like im so FAR from God. i hate the feeling. yepp. i dont wish to talk abt it. sometimes. some things made me real sad. but i dont cry on the spot. the numb i felt replaced all my thots w fear. fear that numbed me so hard i cldnt react. no one came in. the world walked out. emptiness r'lly surrounded me. no one is in my shoes. so what? it was actually her who stood by me. not them. i was wondering why did it happened? its not my results i fear now. is the friendship btw us i fear. they dont understand my SILENCE. im feeling v upset now. i pray to you. take away my doubts. let me LOVE. i know u will nv fail me.
sometimes i dun wish to smile anymore. the smiles are for nothing. jus for me to look better. the smiles hide my truth.
okay. i realize its all my own fault. whatever. no one cares anyways. blah. except GOD. and my ASS. and my parents. and of course. HOPE CHURCH PPLE PPLE (: think on the bright side. perhaps i only need GOD. i only need my ASS and HOPE. i will go on. for God give me strength i pray.
A friend is one who understands our SILENCE.
A friend is volume of sympathy bound in cloth.
A friend is one who multiply joys and divide grief.
A friend is one who comes in when the whole world walks out.
A true friend loves at all time.
TO BE A BETTER FRIEND. YOU HAVE TO SPEAK WORDS OF ENCOUAGEMENT (:
yay. im gonna accept a person this week.
at service today. pastor JEFF talked abt friendship. yepp. FRIENDSHIP. something i treasure so much yet i lose it easily. am i not accepting enough? or are they jus not worthy of my love. i dont know. i jus checked chelk blog. realized ive been so FAR.very FAR from her life. i feel so bad. everyone is living their own life. no own cares abt anyone anymore. new friends. BUSY. like im so FAR from God. i hate the feeling. yepp. i dont wish to talk abt it. sometimes. some things made me real sad. but i dont cry on the spot. the numb i felt replaced all my thots w fear. fear that numbed me so hard i cldnt react. no one came in. the world walked out. emptiness r'lly surrounded me. no one is in my shoes. so what? it was actually her who stood by me. not them. i was wondering why did it happened? its not my results i fear now. is the friendship btw us i fear. they dont understand my SILENCE. im feeling v upset now. i pray to you. take away my doubts. let me LOVE. i know u will nv fail me.
sometimes i dun wish to smile anymore. the smiles are for nothing. jus for me to look better. the smiles hide my truth.
okay. i realize its all my own fault. whatever. no one cares anyways. blah. except GOD. and my ASS. and my parents. and of course. HOPE CHURCH PPLE PPLE (: think on the bright side. perhaps i only need GOD. i only need my ASS and HOPE. i will go on. for God give me strength i pray.
A friend is one who understands our SILENCE.
A friend is volume of sympathy bound in cloth.
A friend is one who multiply joys and divide grief.
A friend is one who comes in when the whole world walks out.
A true friend loves at all time.
TO BE A BETTER FRIEND. YOU HAVE TO SPEAK WORDS OF ENCOUAGEMENT (:
yay. im gonna accept a person this week.
shake that ass- @ 9:57 AM
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