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Friday, February 10, 2006
my one desire. is to give you perfect PRAISE (:
ive got a B THREE for chi o levels. how bad can it be. to those out there. seriously i was numb at the first few hours. however i was damn upset confused and whatever sai feeling in the world. totally upside down. i cld feel my heart cry. really. i teared when i met liza and meiyi. how wish there was a *him for me to hug n cry. (but thr will nv be) mr foo wans a compo for us. i made a title in the LONELY BUS TRIP BACK HOME. the compo shall be FANG QI. the meaning of life. i live it all for GOD. but i do not get what i want easily. the good comes and go. the bad is always here. HAVE FAITH? i want to. but reality stops me so. my soul knows very well i cannot be what i want. i cannot get what i want. i cannot get who i want. the superficial smile behind the plastic mask. im going to depression again. the second phase of depression. GAH. let me slp. the best is let a terrible disaster befall the earth. and all living species be gone. all gone to HEAVEN to see our saviour's face. (: PERFECT.
okay. shall get on with LIFE. get me out of depression someone. PLEASE.
today. yepp. after results. stayed and went to find ganlao. who was busy w the sec4s. den. ate with qinz. obviously it was only her eating. no appetite from the POOR RESULTS. den walked to bus stop. DEN. i realized i left wallet in sch. SHUCKS. MISS ASS was so nice to acc me to the sch. but i ps her as wahtuck ask me talk. so went to find wahtuck thinkin GANLAO was w him. den it was all a SPAM! yepp. ended up with peiliang siongaik sacha wahtuck jiajun and yizhi talking. MAD. bro lim was there STONING. everyone goin into depression mode. ehs. den i went off cus they were talking abt the LONG future. far from what i wished to settle now. yepp. den no ganlao. went home in that lonely bus. sms-ed ASS and ZIYI. i went down to buy bread for my ahgong and ended up late for the CGS band @ acs(barker). met ginette cass and wenlin. yepps. got to know ROWENA. saw natalie. LAUGH AND HIGH with PEH TAITAI. den at interval went to the BB room of acs. i think all the facalities in that sch is much much better den screwed NANHUA. i duno why miss peh wanted this sch at first. GAHS. after everything went around barker. den went to cine with qinz alywin and her ivan. i did not eat. 3 main reasons. no 4. no appetite. too ex. jianfei. save $$. YARH. den i went home in the end. yepps. I RAN HOME in fact. but i still did not eat. hais. my day. is a sad day. i hope tme will be better. i will be gng to church! YAY! finally. i miss church. i miss ballet. i miss west b one. i miss my old self. i miss the love in me.
to ASS:
hai. thanks loads. realized had been getting closer to u since the FIANSEH incident. yepp. we'll keep going (: r'lly glad to have found such a fren like you (: YAY. jus here to tell u that. I LOVE YOU LOADS. i give u my heart. i give u my soul. i live for you alone. MAD. thats for GOD! LOL. <3 you.
FANG QI
giving up. cus u mocked at me.
giving up. cus i dun have FAITH.
giving up. cus i wont lose anything.
giving up. cus i rather be dead.
giving up. cus i want to take a turn and get away
giving up. cus i am tired from trying.
giving up. cus theres no more HOPE. even if ure trying so hard.
giving up. cus my tear glands are drying up.
giving up. cus pple who hates me wants me to.
giving up. cus i wan to anger you.
FANG QI. SHI ZHE ZHUAN GE WAN. YE XU HUI YOU CAI HONG.
ive got a B THREE for chi o levels. how bad can it be. to those out there. seriously i was numb at the first few hours. however i was damn upset confused and whatever sai feeling in the world. totally upside down. i cld feel my heart cry. really. i teared when i met liza and meiyi. how wish there was a *him for me to hug n cry. (but thr will nv be) mr foo wans a compo for us. i made a title in the LONELY BUS TRIP BACK HOME. the compo shall be FANG QI. the meaning of life. i live it all for GOD. but i do not get what i want easily. the good comes and go. the bad is always here. HAVE FAITH? i want to. but reality stops me so. my soul knows very well i cannot be what i want. i cannot get what i want. i cannot get who i want. the superficial smile behind the plastic mask. im going to depression again. the second phase of depression. GAH. let me slp. the best is let a terrible disaster befall the earth. and all living species be gone. all gone to HEAVEN to see our saviour's face. (: PERFECT.
okay. shall get on with LIFE. get me out of depression someone. PLEASE.
today. yepp. after results. stayed and went to find ganlao. who was busy w the sec4s. den. ate with qinz. obviously it was only her eating. no appetite from the POOR RESULTS. den walked to bus stop. DEN. i realized i left wallet in sch. SHUCKS. MISS ASS was so nice to acc me to the sch. but i ps her as wahtuck ask me talk. so went to find wahtuck thinkin GANLAO was w him. den it was all a SPAM! yepp. ended up with peiliang siongaik sacha wahtuck jiajun and yizhi talking. MAD. bro lim was there STONING. everyone goin into depression mode. ehs. den i went off cus they were talking abt the LONG future. far from what i wished to settle now. yepp. den no ganlao. went home in that lonely bus. sms-ed ASS and ZIYI. i went down to buy bread for my ahgong and ended up late for the CGS band @ acs(barker). met ginette cass and wenlin. yepps. got to know ROWENA. saw natalie. LAUGH AND HIGH with PEH TAITAI. den at interval went to the BB room of acs. i think all the facalities in that sch is much much better den screwed NANHUA. i duno why miss peh wanted this sch at first. GAHS. after everything went around barker. den went to cine with qinz alywin and her ivan. i did not eat. 3 main reasons. no 4. no appetite. too ex. jianfei. save $$. YARH. den i went home in the end. yepps. I RAN HOME in fact. but i still did not eat. hais. my day. is a sad day. i hope tme will be better. i will be gng to church! YAY! finally. i miss church. i miss ballet. i miss west b one. i miss my old self. i miss the love in me.
to ASS:
hai. thanks loads. realized had been getting closer to u since the FIANSEH incident. yepp. we'll keep going (: r'lly glad to have found such a fren like you (: YAY. jus here to tell u that. I LOVE YOU LOADS. i give u my heart. i give u my soul. i live for you alone. MAD. thats for GOD! LOL. <3 you.
FANG QI
giving up. cus u mocked at me.
giving up. cus i dun have FAITH.
giving up. cus i wont lose anything.
giving up. cus i rather be dead.
giving up. cus i want to take a turn and get away
giving up. cus i am tired from trying.
giving up. cus theres no more HOPE. even if ure trying so hard.
giving up. cus my tear glands are drying up.
giving up. cus pple who hates me wants me to.
giving up. cus i wan to anger you.
FANG QI. SHI ZHE ZHUAN GE WAN. YE XU HUI YOU CAI HONG.
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